It's A Dark Path You Don't Want To Go Down....

-PLEASE READ ALL- or skip to middle and end. 

Okay. So a dear DA family member has made a journal two or so days ago about ending her life. I saw everyone posting to please help her, and linked to her journal. I was of course a little confused when I read "Please Help Her" I read everyone's journals and went straight to hers as well. Reading it and choking on my own tears. Yes, I was crying pretty badly. Why? Because I see her as not just another member on Da, or a friend...but a family member. I consider everyone on here family. And to find out that one of them wants to end their life...it makes me sad. 

I commented on her journal; icemoonthehybrid.deviantart.co…

Here is what I said-->

"I know I may be late with this. I haven't been on Da for a while. And most people don't know why. 

I have attempted suicide three times now. I took many pills that almost led me to kidney failure. Tried to drown in my own bath tub and tried hanging myself. I was saved by my family each and every time, and if it weren't for them I wouldn't be here today. I have many cuts on my arms from razors I found. I have had voices in my head since I was four years old due to a traumatic experience. I have had suicidal thoughts since I was 9 years old. What ever you are going through, I promise you, you can get through it. You have to fight through the dark. There are many people out there who love you. And care for you. I am looking through most of these comments, and I see complete strangers who love you. Some of them have been affected and inspired by you greatly. I know you have on me. And you can't give up like that. Prove to your demons that you can fight this battle, and you can win the war. Everyone deserves to live. Everyone deserves to see there life through, be able to have many chapters in there life. 

And please. If you do, (I'm only saying this because it is your choice. But it's not a good one) don't do it on your birthday. That is the day your family celebrates the best day of there life. Your parents life at that. On that day, you came into there world and changed it. That day you were born, you changed everything. You have later inspired other to do things they thought they could never do, with out you realizing what you did. So please, don't die on the day you made your parents who they are today. And if you can, don't do it at all. Live your life to the fullest. Ignore every hate, because they are probably sitting there with shitty lives and want to ruin others to make them smile. Dont let them have a victory. Win your own victory and put your middle finger to their face, and say you don't affect me! 

I may or may not have it worse, I don't know your situation and I'm sure you and no one else wants to hear me go on about me. But I do know, if I and many many others can get through it, you can too. 

-Forever with love, Flare "

(If you don't want to hear me talk about my past, please skip to the next paragraph. ^^')

When I was born, my mother barely turned 19, and she did not prepare for me really. She didn't have a good job or her own home even. My father, on my birthday, on the day I was born went to my grandmothers house and took all my mothers money and even cleared her bank account. Running off. He left for drugs.  Four years later, dies of a drug overdose in his own home. Found two weeks later. Never to meet his daughter. My mom struggled with where she lived, so we moved with my aunt for two or three years in Cali. My mom took two shifts at work while my aunt and her kids helped raise me. For a couple years it was okay. We got evicted from one of our houses after moving out and going back to Reno, but we managed to live with a few close friends and family. When I turned four, my mom met a man. They started dating and ended up buying a small house together. A year after moving in together, he got into drugs. My mom didn't know, and I didn't know what he was doing every time I caught him since I was so young. This lead him to...molestation. He would come into my room at night and...do things to me. Remind you, I was 5.  Also the time the voices popped up in my head. Two years later, it continued and my little brother was born. Of course that didn't stop him. He continued it....until one day I told my school councilor. I was 9 years old. And already showed signs if depression. He was arrested for drugs, and molesting a child in 2009. (He will be getting out next year April 2017) We were on our own, my mom struggling with money and two kids. Fast forward to when I was 12. She met a man named Kris. They dated and moved in together five months later. And I am not afraid to say his name because he is on my hit list. Long story short; drunk abusive towards mainly my mom. A little me and barely my brother. He treated me and my brother like slaves, bossed us around. My mom dumped him after he punched her in the face and gave her a black eye. That's only one of the many times he hit her. Or attacked her. He attacked me only a few times, if I defended her or did something wrong.  I feel like I explained enough to give you guys an idea. I won't explain what happened with my male cousins and almost being beaten to death and raped almost. Because those are long stories I like to keep secret.... And hidden. Forever. 

If you didn't want to read about me, you can start reading here now. Everything I said was true. You can let others bring you down. You can't let yourself let you down. Don't go through my mistakes. Please. 

As stated; I tried to kill myself three times. I cut my harms, legs. Hell I even cut my face and neck. I have had the worse childhood ever. I still to this day can't believe how I manage to stay strong. Of course it left me traumatized, and made me hear voices and other stuff. But I try not to let them control me. I have to admit though, I caved in a few times. But because of my family, my friends, and amazing people on here...I got through it. I am getting help and slowly healing...one reason why I haven't been very active. Icemoonthehybrid please please don't go down that path. You can make it through what ever it is you are going through. Life may be rough, but you are tougher. 

I drew this drawing, of her Oc Golden Glory. And mine which I will make a ref with soon. I got this idea from xTheDragonRebornx. I didn't have much time today to draw well or colour it due to personal reasons that are happening today. But I hope it sends the message. Please please, spare a minute of your time to draw something for our dear family member. Spread to the word to help her, and many people who are like her. Suffering and alone. 

I want to take a moment as well, to thank people who have helped me even if they knew it or not. They inspired me and helped me get through my toughest times. 
RhynoBullraq 
xTheDragonRebornx 
SpudbollerCreations 
ChrispyCookie 
Noir100 
And all my amazing watchers
And of course my amazing friends, Sydney, Deven and Julz.